urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal the damage in her pretty little eyes says it all i'm sorry, i wasn't paying attention 2006-10-12T04:35:08Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal:104991 2006-10-12T04:35:08Z 2006-10-12T04:35:08Z i found him. the man i couldn't let go of. i'd say he ruined me again, but that would have been a huge lie because i was ruined when he found me, or vice versa. <br /><br />five months later, i am in a good place.<br /><br />i am getting over the other one. the friend. because i got tired of holding my heart in my hands just to have the door closed in my face. love is not enough when it stays unspoken. i know that i am partly to blame for the unspoken romantic part of it, but the friendship, that was on him. i can't read minds. i can't rely on hearing things from other people. he could never tell me, so i am letting go.<br /><br />in other news, i have some relatively healthy people in my life, i've stopped drinking/smoking for the most part and i am moving to new york in february. yes, i am aware that i will freeze my butt off. i am also awre that this is what i am supposed to do, for once in my life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal:101334 2004-12-03T05:46:44Z 2004-12-03T05:46:44Z so. i have no internet.<br /><br />but i'm moving to san luis obispo.<br /><br />in march.<br /><br />yes. i had a wonderful thansgiving there so carissa and i dedided to move. goodtimes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal:91909 2004-09-25T06:41:28Z 2004-09-25T06:41:28Z i look really hot tonight.<br /><br />i now know the meaning of all dressed up with nowhere to go.<br /><br />i need to find a straight boy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal:91453 2004-09-23T07:31:22Z 2004-09-23T07:31:22Z whiskeytown - mirror, mirror oh, i am tired. eight and a half hours of making coffee is lame. my throat hurts, i hope it's not tonsillitis. i should probably stop smoking. yeah.<br /><br />job interview tomorrow. yay for that. four hour shift at present job.<br /><br />i cannot wait to pack my suitcase and get on the plane. san francisco will be a nice change for four days. i am so tired of los angeles right now.<br /><br />i had dinner at lauren's which was fabulous.<br /><br />i need to go to bed.<br /><br />i need a lot of things.<br /><br />i've been making lists again, which says something.<br /><br />i don't want that smell left on me, it is much too reminiscent. i'm sure i spelled that wrong.<br /><br />i am still in love with ryan adams. yes, his music makes me happy. even the sad stuff. it just fits again. <br /><br />i need a change, a big one. i am not used to consistency, it is uncomfortable for me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal:37798 2004-05-04T04:56:51Z 2004-05-07T06:28:46Z <p>i think it's not fair how television always has repeats, and life can't. i wouldn't even so much mind repeating the bad episodes if i could repeat the good ones...</p> <p>if you don't look at these pictures, i will hate you forever.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><a name="cutid1"></a> </p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/hotsauce.jpg"></p> <p>we should start from the beginning. lj and i breoke into chris's apartment and ate taco bell. it was delicious.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/SpecialoftheeveningHot_Laurens.jpg"></p> <p>then we got ready at joey's...</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/HollywoodDates.jpg"></p> <p>i smoked a cigarette on the balcony with jas before curling my hair...</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/joeyTmatch.jpg"></p> <p>joey and T got adorable...</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/moviestarmormon.jpg"></p> <p>i love this picture of jas. i want to makeout with it, but that came later.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/boys.jpg"></p> <p>my boys are so handsome. i adore them mucho.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/memindychris.jpg"></p> <p>we got to room 5 and all hell broke loose, in a good way.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/heartiganlove.jpg"></p> <p>i feel as if ryan and i should be married. i mean, if our prom pictures are this cute, our wedding pictures and our children would blow everyone out of the water.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/heatherlikeswine.jpg"></p> <p>heather likes wine. i like heather. what a coincidence.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/girls3.jpg"></p> <p>i am thouroughly pissed off at mindy right now, but we take cute pictures. i mean, let's be honest. btw, lauren matheson is my favorite girl.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/LoveinLights.jpg"></p> <p>he is one of my very best friends. i love that picture.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/eye.jpg"></p> <p>falling asleep on la brea is beautiful.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/motherteresa.jpg"></p> <p>the black thing on my head is my dress. good fucking thing it had a slip.</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/somekindofwonderful.jpg"></p> <p>lauren belongs in los angeles, can't you see?</p> <p><img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/thekissheardroundtheworld.jpg"></p> <p>i think this is the most beautiful picture i've ever taken. i want it blown up and printed. is it bad that he was one of the six people i madeout with that night?</p> there are tons more pictures, but i don't have time to document my entire weekend, so they will come later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nightimegal:974 2004-02-11T08:15:15Z 2004-05-11T08:21:21Z <img src="http://img34.photobucket.com/albums/v104/leabeatit/surprise.jpg"> friends only.