| i found him. the man i couldn't let go of. i'd say he ruined me again, but that would have been a huge lie because i was ruined when he found me, or vice versa.
five months later, i am in a good place.
i am getting over the other one. the friend. because i got tired of holding my heart in my hands just to have the door closed in my face. love is not enough when it stays unspoken. i know that i am partly to blame for the unspoken romantic part of it, but the friendship, that was on him. i can't read minds. i can't rely on hearing things from other people. he could never tell me, so i am letting go.
in other news, i have some relatively healthy people in my life, i've stopped drinking/smoking for the most part and i am moving to new york in february. yes, i am aware that i will freeze my butt off. i am also awre that this is what i am supposed to do, for once in my life. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| so. i have no internet.
but i'm moving to san luis obispo.
in march.
yes. i had a wonderful thansgiving there so carissa and i dedided to move. goodtimes. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i look really hot tonight.
i now know the meaning of all dressed up with nowhere to go.
i need to find a straight boy. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | whiskeytown - mirror, mirror | | Time: | 12:24 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/tired.gif) tired |
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| oh, i am tired. eight and a half hours of making coffee is lame. my throat hurts, i hope it's not tonsillitis. i should probably stop smoking. yeah.
job interview tomorrow. yay for that. four hour shift at present job.
i cannot wait to pack my suitcase and get on the plane. san francisco will be a nice change for four days. i am so tired of los angeles right now.
i had dinner at lauren's which was fabulous.
i need to go to bed.
i need a lot of things.
i've been making lists again, which says something.
i don't want that smell left on me, it is much too reminiscent. i'm sure i spelled that wrong.
i am still in love with ryan adams. yes, his music makes me happy. even the sad stuff. it just fits again.
i need a change, a big one. i am not used to consistency, it is uncomfortable for me. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 09:36 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) impressed |
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| i think it's not fair how television always has repeats, and life can't. i wouldn't even so much mind repeating the bad episodes if i could repeat the good ones...
if you don't look at these pictures, i will hate you forever.
( they said beauty didn't matter, they were wrong ) | | comments: Leave a comment |
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